Back from the Land Beyond...

Well here I am, a year from the last post and I promise I have a good reason. The pc died, fried to toast and the one we were given was very old and not able to perform even basic functions so I have been waiting patiently until I could get another computer to get back on my blog. I have the pc, now I need to get back to work.

My personal situation is better, not great but better than last year so I will call that a major blessing. My health continues to deteriorate but that is to be expected of Primary Lymphedema. There is no cure, only maintenance. I still refuse to pollute my body with narcotics, I use herbs (legal ones :) )  and I take muscle relaxers to ease the cramps in my legs which are what trigger the worse pain. On a bad day I take Ibuprofen, on a real bad day I just lay in bed and wonder who I can bitch slap to feel better. Actually the list is long, but the consequences not worth the momentary joy... well... maybe it would be worth it, I will have to seriously think that one over :)

My life has seriously changed in the past 9 years, even more so in the past three. I long for the days of past when I worked the clubs, danced, partied and was the Gothic social butterfly who had few cares and lived for the moment. I have learned many lessons, have experience some major defeats but I refuse to let it control me. I won't fall victim to my past and I will not repeat past mistakes. 

I am writing again and trying to figure out some way to make some extra income. My disability was approved but the payment is small and barely covers the bills so I need to be smart and creative. I am gardening again but due to my limitations physically I have to grow my veggies and herbs in containers which is ok by me, as long as I can still grow them.  I have chickens too and I am adding more edibles as much as possible. In my blog a year ago I kinda ranted a bit about preparedness and how everyone needs to learn some skills and grow some food. I still feel that way but I don't want to get preachy about it so all I will say is don't think the Government will take care of you in an emergency and don't think you will be able to get by on credit cards or that people will band together and help you. Perhaps at first, but if things really go South, except for small communities and bands of family the only person that will help you is YOU.  

So I will try to be diligent about blogging, it's a good outlet because I do spend at least 5 minutes a day suppressing the desire to bitch slap someone so maybe this will be good therapy :)

Until next we meet....

Your  Fairy Gothess Mother

:)